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? upset.. @ Saturday, March 13, 2010 ?

This week, i went home cause i have my toefl test on saturday.. ok, please dont ask about my toefl test. It was tOTally horrible! i mean, i know that i can do but that day, I dont know why that I am so damn nervous and the room that the test was held, is really cold! Until, i was really shivering like mad like a parkingson person. My mom scold me cause why i didnt bring a sweater to there and i am not a Polar Bear which can stand cold! And she said more that i am so kurus kering and obviously cant stand cold! Haih! I was so dissapointed about my toefl and I just hope that I didnt fail my toefl exam. Oh god. I cant bear to take it again anymore! Anyway, i just can't concentrate on my test! huh!

Anyway, firstly, i came to the toefl test center quite early. And as people kept coming, i was so nervous and worried cause i'm the only malay girl day. I dont know why, but it just feel weird. I think its a very long time that I hadnt surrounded but various races. I mean, at school, i usually friends with all kinds of races and the environment its like that. then when i come to college, its almost 97% Malays...........
So, actually i like to mixed around with anyone actually during the school days la. But at my college? urgh... the people looked at me pun diaorg pandang I semacam cam I ni Alien dari planet laen and i dont belong there! bongok btol!
That is why I LOVE "M" group and certain friends only...

So, yeah, I was shocked when a chinese guy aproach me.. he's quite friendly.. Then we talked la.. hahaha, i managed to be friend with him for a while. Then, another chinese guy approached me and we're like start talking and talking..
It was really unexpected cause they sempat lagi buat jokes! hahahha! Dahla, diorg tu handsome.. LOL!
but i'm a little bit shy la.. Hahaha.. but they looked really brilliant and smart.. hmm.. bagus, handsome, smart, bralliant... LOL!
So, yeah, at the end we said bye .. that's all.. nothing much anyway. Its just that I was really happy and shocked at the same time that they are very friendly.. :D

Anyway, i went back home this weekend, and guess what. My brother buat hal. He lied to my mom that he want to see movies with his friend and he went to cyber cafe instead! And he even made his friend really bad.. I mean, his friend dah tunggu dia kat wayang dah! and his friend kept calling my mom where's my bro!!
then, my mom ask my dad to find my brother at the Cyber cafe.. My mom said, her instinct says so. And guess what.. My brother was there at CC playing games ALONE! My mom instincts are really scary... It seems that she knows everything and can read through our mind~~~
I dont want to talk much la bout my bro. But i was so so so so so dissapointed of my brother's behavior.
Not only he lied to my mom, he also LIED to me!!!
And this is really pissed me off!
Cause you know why, i mean, skrang i feel that the brother and sister connection between us are so far away and we didnt talked much to each other. Like last time, we really talked a lot and share things including my bro's SECRET..
WEll, now not only he lied to me, he didnt talked much and he wants to be alone in his fantasy world.. I dunno la.. Its complicated to say.
And i am soooooooo sad!! Seriously..
Entah camner la nnti bler aku g US! 2-3 years maybe i'll stay there! OMG!

Anyway, i heard my cousin's story lak..
Its like this..
last year, december, after finish his SPM, my cousin LOVE to go to cyber cafe near to his house. So, he went there almost everyday..
One day, he went in CC to play games. On that day, the internet was so DAMN freaking SLOW! the characters inside the video game also move very slow and stuck!
My cousin was so irritated by the internet and the game, then he geram sangat, he cut the keyboard's wire and mouse's wire. then he went out from the CC..
the next day, the tauke of the shop always follow my cousin went back home to mintak ganti rugi.. He waited outside my cousin's house and he wont barge a little at all! he just stay there and he UGUT my cousin. he said that he wont go away until my cousin paid, if dont want, then he will do something horrible.. something like that. So, my auntie have to paid the tauke kedai..
Moral of the story is dont too obsess with games.. haih..
No offence to people that likes video games.. you can play as many as you want but dont until it will affect ur life. If we lose or we die in the video game, it can revive back again over and over again. but in the reality real world, if we die, we wont be revive again. die means die... no more other chances...................

My story ends here!