? sick, tired and bad day.. @ Friday, August 28, 2009 ?
Ok.. I noe that I have to be positive in everything you do and always think positive.. But sometimes, you just cant.. Haiz.. I mean, I can be REALLY patience. Seriously. I don’t want to praise myself or whatever but I think I had been really patience for a long time and everytime. All the problems just come to me in a sudden and its not one problem, its like.. what do we call in BM?? Oh yeah, perumpamaan seperti masalah itu datang dengan 1 kotak yang dipenuhi dgn masalah. For example like suddenly you are given a lot of task at one time. Its like that. All the problems come in at one time. Haish. So, what did I do?? Oh yeah, I have to be REALLY FULLY patient. I noe its kinda hard for me cause I’m not actually a positive thinking person. Cause U don’t know, when I was in secondary school, I was the most negative thinker. I mean not a bad negative thinker! Its like more to paranoid and stuffs like that. And I easily get paranoid to small things which I don’t know why. But now, I changed a lot. Maybe its all thanks to the Program Latihan Khidmat Negara that I had participate about a years ago.. march 2008… My kem was at Kem Setia Ikhlas, Semenyih Selangor…
Ok. Back to the topic again.. yeah, I got sick.. one by one problems come to me… but I tell to myself that I had to be patience. Maybe semua ini adalah ujian daripada Allah terutama sekali sekarang kan bulan puasa. So, yeah, I got flu and cough. I think today is getting worst and my body feel so weak. Seriously, when I get sick or something, my body will get really weak, especially my head will get really tired and cant think anymore. And also, my mood to talk also will go down… That’s why I don’t talk so much today. My tekak sakit and feel not to talk..
Talk about today, yes, more disasters come. My 2nd test of Physics. Seriously, I know I had done bad cause I cant concentrate doing the exams cause my head was at somewhere else and I feel so weak.. Morever, I’m SICK. And I feel so uneasy and my head cant think. Yeah, I think I did really bad in the test. I know the test was quite easy if I study really2 hard and prepare earlier. But how stupid I am. Its my own fault cause I studied last minute… And yeah, I’m not the type that study last minute actually. If I studied last minute, I’m pretty sure that I will do bad in my exams.. Cause last time, when I’m in secondary school, I used to study last minute, and yeah, I get all bad results and not satisfying. But before SPM, I prepared well, and I get the satisfaction. Yeah, only 7 A’s. but still I felt sad cause I didn’t get all 10A’s. So, maybe the god wants it like that so I redha and bersyukur jer apa yang ku dapat.. Amin…
Just now, I went to the clinic with my dad. Yeah, I went home cause berbuka puasa di rumah with my parents was much2 fun…
And yeah, so then, when I want to take my medicine, suddenly my insurance card cannot be used. So, my dad had to pay cash to the clinic.. I rasa bersalah lak kat my dad… huhuhu…
And yeah, suddenly I feel so rindu to my kampung and my grandparents.. I want to balik kampung to Kuala Terengganu nnti balik raya… I want to meet my cousins eventhough last time I’m not really close to my father’s side but this year, I want to get along with them and start to make new personality about myself so that they will change their perceptions towards me… Last time I was quite cold to them cause I’m not really close to them but this year, I’m trying to be friendly with them… Maybe they will accept me again.. hope so, but sometimes it’s kinda embarrassing and I feel bad when I didn’t remember their names cause they actually remember my names! So, this year, yeah azam baru babe!!
Yesterday night, I had a dream… a WEIRD dream. I don’t know why but my dreams are weird and NOT logical at all!!! Especially, I once had a dream about Eminem and Rihana and Eminem was a thief and Rihana was my friend. Oh god! Seriously its weird man! And Eminem, he’s not that kind of normal pencuri.. Its like … did u watch anime Ranma??? The pak cik tua gatal??? Yang pak cik tua yg suka curi panties and bra tu??? Oh yeah, dat one!! Eminem is like him…. Creepy right?? Hahahah!!! :D
And yeah, back to my dream last night. I dream about my old school friends and yeah, in the dream, I had one best friend. He’s a guy. Well, I know him cause he’s my friend in real life. I’m not going to tell his name. But something weird is going on there. Do u want to noe what??? I fell in love with him. ITS WEIRD MAN! But in real life, I never think about him at all! And I think now I didn’t see him already! But why he must come to my dream??? Haiz.. yesterday, yesterday night, I dreamt about ZEE with tiffany and pei pei.. WHY>??? I mean, why cant I dream of meeting Jae JOONG???? Huhuhu.. So sad.
And yesterday I watch the Heaven’s Postman teaser. DAMN! Jae joong kissed with the girl!!! It’s a Korean drama and its like a love story.. But still! I’m so sad.. But I sad to myself, oh well, its only a drama… Just imagine the gurl was YOU, and yeah, tadaaaaaa!!!! Eventhough its just and imagination to urselve but oh well, that’s the only way you cheer youself up!!! Heheheheheh…
ANOTHER TOPIC…
I just realized that when I like somebody or admire something, I will like that thing only ONE and no other things. That means I only focus on ONE Thing ONLY.. Last time, when I was in form 2 until form 5.. oh god!!! Seriously that time.. I was a really a hardcore anime otakU!! Seriously, I damn love anime and I sanggup beli the merchandise that sold at the shop especially my favourite anime merchandise. If you come to my house, my cardboard, full of manga books and anime magazines, my wall and door full of anime posters even inside my cardboard.. And yeah, many anime DVDs too. Hehehe. All that I already collected from form 3 already. When I’m form 2, I don’t have much of money yet, so my friends is my main anime resources. So, anything cd or anime episodes, I will borrow from her. So, now??? I’m still an anime otaku. Still watch anime but not as obsess as the old days. But still read manga like crazy.. hahahah… but luckily, I found a few friends that like anime also in my college. So, its quite a relieved cause I can share my interest with them! So, if you think that I always like and talked about JAE joong, that means I really like him, for a very long time and its quite hard to actually admire or like someone else… and I can tell you, when I got crush with some dude, I think its kinda hard to let go of him.. hahaha.. My friends knew me well already…
So, I better stop write now, hahahha. Its quite a very long post! I finished my tests already. That’s why I wrote this long!!!! So, if u manage to read all of these, CONGRATS to you and a lot of thanx for spending ur time to read all of these… ARIGATOU!!!
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